space-oddity's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- i carved your name with a heart just up above "yeah, the trees, those useless trees, they never said that you were leaving." . . in one twenty-four hour period i've managed to munch off all of my newly grown fingernails. i guess the thought of my father makes me nervous. just when things were getting back to normal, and i stopped being anxious and stressed, just when i stopped biting these damned nails, i'm reminded of him again. i had great plans of buying wonderful shades of nail polish. not any more; that'll have to wait. . that feeling that you get when your hair falls into place, and your make-up's flawless, and there are no blemishes, and you say all the right things, and you're wearing your favorite pair of underwear - that feeling. it's hard to remember what it feels like to have it all together like that. i haven't had one of those days in a long time.. . i'm so tired of feeling dumpy, downright frumpy. 11:16 p.m. - 2001-10-03 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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